feeling very blah today. i have so much going on in my head, it's almost overwhelming. someone...actually a neighbor broke into our apt yesterday and we're pretty sure we know who and it makes me so angry cuz we have no proof, but we know by what was taken, and believe me, it was nothing of value and just made it more obvious who it was. my screen on the screen door is ruined and the back door is no longer secure. and this just adds to the stock pile of things on my mind. and the old me wants to rage and make subtle threats out loud. be cold to everyone in the apt tenament because of the one person (most of the other tenants are related)
i'm tired. mentally, physically, emotionally. i'm gaining unwanted weight and feeling almost powerless about it. that's it for now, gotta run. but i needed to vent.
About Me
- uncommon1
- i am a man who wants to know the Lord better, who wants to feel comfortable calling Him Lord all the time. these are some of my random thoughts, and things i discover about Him and living for Him. i seem to be a slow learner (and probably stubborn too) and i am thankful for His patience and graciousness. this is an attempt to share some of my experience and feelings about this "journey"...this life. i hope to be really open about it, and talk about the nitty gritty struggles that most people don't talk about. (and boy do i struggle. ) we'll see about that, that's very much NOT who i am. i'm married, with two sons. praise God! and i feel undeservedly blessed about that! i'm searching, trying to find my way to Him and to stay with Him. this is my attempt at putting some of it into words, even if it only makes sense to me.
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that totally sucks. my in-laws had the same thing happen. don't quite know hot to interact with people afterwards.
Exactly!! but by God's grace, i've been able to let it go, at least now, i just make sarcastic jokes about it. i ended up calmly confronting one "suspect" and was able to narrow it down to who i originally thougt it was. i think the air's been cleared, plus i can't hold on to anger, it eats you up takes energy that could be used for good stuff. and again i have to remind myself often, that i've been forgiven and need to be that way myself towards others.
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