it's been a tough week spiritually. the wife and kid are away and my motivation just died down. i had a feeling this would happen. i dunno if this happens with other people but sometimes i slip backwards and have to start over again. i don't like that about myself. i'd like to stay focused and not sway. i think a good bible study to go to might help. i know of one on saturday nites, i might check it out. it would be tough to do though. with our schedules it might not work. i'll have to check and see if there are any online where people meet on a regular basis.

but i haven't given up, just disappointed in myself. i can see the difference in my thought process when i'm not really in the Word. for me it seems to be something that should be done on a daily basis or at least on a regular basis during the week. a good few hours spent reading the bible and getting to know God and understand His nature. from all the reading i've been doing i can see that there's so much to be learned from the bible. hopefully i'll get back on track soon.