strugglin

i'm strugglin today. we're supposed to love God with our whole being. how do you do that? i see so many people write about loving God with their heart, mind, body and soul. does that mean they don't disobey? does that mean they don't struggle with disobedience? a friend told me that if you hate what you do, as in your disobedience, you're on the right track. well i do hate when i mess up, but i hate it more when i know i'm gonna mess up and part of that is due to temptation just gnawing away at me. how do you fight yourself? II Corinthian 5:17 says if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. the new has come and the old has gone away. why do i not always feel like the old has gone away. i feel like the old is always in the shadows lurking for an opportunity to come back. its frustrating. is there any one else who has this experience?? so far this blog has been private, so today i think i'll make it public, and see if i get any replies to the question.