huh??

a friend of mine had a "guy's night" a week ago at his home. there were about six of us and we just ate and hung out and it was cool. i got the feeling and know now that we all had different beliefs. the age group was varied too. after eating we watched a tv show and played a couple of video games. during that time my friend was showing me a book called "The Complete Works of Francis A. Schaeffer" that he is reading right now. we were talking about different aspects of the book and at some point creation came up. one of the guys who goes to our church, and i'm probably assuming here, but i'm pretty confident in my assumtion, is a christian said that he wasn't sure that he believed in the creation story in Genesis. he said that he didn't think he could believe that we were created from the earth/dust. i was pretty surprised to hear that. my thinking is that if you're a believer and you believe that Christ died on the cross for our sins and arose three days later, how could you not believe in the creation according to Genesis? isn't the bible whole truth? if one doesn't believe in one part of it then how can one believe in any of it? what about the virgin birth? the parting of the red sea? the miracles Jesus performed? johah and the whale? how about lazarus? the story of sampson? david and goliath? if all those accounts are true in the bible then how could the creation account not be? if you believe in God's Word as truth, wouldn't it all be true?

this week has still been pretty rough but i feel better today. and compared to yesterday, its like i was so low yesterday that feeling so much better today doesn't seem logical. i can't explain why i do. prayer is a wonderful thing. "what a friend we have in Jesus - what a privilege to carry every thing to God in prayer". yesterday i was ready to cry, felt so overwhelmed with life, mostly money, but life just seemed to be too much. from the time i got up i didn't even want to come in to work, it took alot for me to not just stay home. i felt like being a "no call now show" and just let the cards fall where they may. i was in a bad mood too, angry, and i don't hide that well. but like i said, prayer is a wonderful thing. do i still have the same concerns? yes. but they're not weighing on me like yesterday, not now anyway.

i still desire God, still desire to be a "better" Christian and when i read from ybmt, i get encouraged. freedom in Christ, it doesn't make sense to alot of people. christianity does seem to have a lot of do's and don'ts, but when you really seek Him, you see that the freedom is freedom from all that's wrong in this life. it's freedom from that inner man who wants to do his own thing, who thinks he knows better than God. thinks he can make it on his own. and the funny thing is we can't even breath on our own, yeah we might understand how it is we breath and that oxygen is necessary, but we really have no control over it. but that subject will lead to a tangent, lol so i'll stop there. another encouraging read is say what now?. just discovered him today through ybmt. God is good y'all. (not that anyone is reading this, hopefully in the near future). but if anyone is reading this, God is good, beyond our full understanding, but i challenge anyone to seek Him out. you'll be challenged like never before.

God's Sovereignty

i wonder if God still works with us even when we're struggling. what i mean is romans 8:28-29 says "28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers." but what about when those He's called are struggling? Jesus said that "if you love me you will obey what i command" John 14:7. but what about when you're in a place where obedience is hard for you? meaning that you're losing in the battle against flesh, you try but lose out.

the NIV says that this is when Jesus was promising the Holy Spirit to the
disciples. He makes the statement again in verse 22 - "Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him."

so again the question would be, does God still work for the good of those who love Him when it seems like it's a daily struggle to keep your mind clean? are we not relying on the Holy Spirit in that case? is there a concrete way to know when the Holy Spirit is working in you? is it automatic? you accept Christ and recieve the Holy Spirit? i guess these are questions not a question.

these are things that run through my mind. what sux is having the desire to live for God and still stumbling and tripping and falling over yourself. how do you let go and let God?

it's been a tough week spiritually. the wife and kid are away and my motivation just died down. i had a feeling this would happen. i dunno if this happens with other people but sometimes i slip backwards and have to start over again. i don't like that about myself. i'd like to stay focused and not sway. i think a good bible study to go to might help. i know of one on saturday nites, i might check it out. it would be tough to do though. with our schedules it might not work. i'll have to check and see if there are any online where people meet on a regular basis.

but i haven't given up, just disappointed in myself. i can see the difference in my thought process when i'm not really in the Word. for me it seems to be something that should be done on a daily basis or at least on a regular basis during the week. a good few hours spent reading the bible and getting to know God and understand His nature. from all the reading i've been doing i can see that there's so much to be learned from the bible. hopefully i'll get back on track soon.

strugglin

i'm strugglin today. we're supposed to love God with our whole being. how do you do that? i see so many people write about loving God with their heart, mind, body and soul. does that mean they don't disobey? does that mean they don't struggle with disobedience? a friend told me that if you hate what you do, as in your disobedience, you're on the right track. well i do hate when i mess up, but i hate it more when i know i'm gonna mess up and part of that is due to temptation just gnawing away at me. how do you fight yourself? II Corinthian 5:17 says if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. the new has come and the old has gone away. why do i not always feel like the old has gone away. i feel like the old is always in the shadows lurking for an opportunity to come back. its frustrating. is there any one else who has this experience?? so far this blog has been private, so today i think i'll make it public, and see if i get any replies to the question.

i'm goin back to cali, back to cali

i met with my manager yesterday and was informed that i'm heading back to the site i was at previous to this one. bleaahk! much bigger site, office politics and it can be quite the busy site. and stressful. i've changed alot since i worked there. it was just one year ago. i know a year ago, i woulda been heated about the decision to send me back, probably woulda taken it more personal. but God is working in me. so the attitude about alot of things have changed, its pretty amazing and catches me off guard when i notice my reaction to alot of things now. deep down inside i can feel the change of my heart.

the main thing i'm dissapointed with is that i'm not gonna be able to have my "breakfast with the Lord". for the past few months i've been having devotions in the morning at work. for awhile it wasn't every morning then it just turned into an every morning thing. something i really wanted to do. just about every morning i was getting to work hungry by the time i got in, so i'd get my tea and bagel or whatever each morning and do my devotions. sometimes it would turn into a couple of hours of looking up scripture, or reading on a specific topic and reading the scriptures that went along with that topic. i won't be able to do that now. no private office. so i'm gonna miss what i called my breakfast with God...getting fed with His spiritual food.

i'll be in a larger office with three other guys. i don't know one of them, but the other guys are not Christians. i won't be able to play my music like i was before. and the enviroment itself is just not that great. my wife was encouraging and said God will find away for us to continue meeting. i hope so. my response was "its me i don't trust". there'll be different guys there now then when i left, but the language is usually pretty coarse there. and that means i'm gonna be surrounded by alot more worldliness and Jesus's name is only used in profanity. in my office i was able to sit and do searches on Christian music and concentrate more on my relationship with God. sometimes listening to sermons, reading other Christian blogs, online magazines, anything that had to with the Lord, just discovering God. i'm actually feeling very saddened by it at the moment. i'm trusting that this is what He wants. its not permanent, but i need to do my part to make sure i'm not there too long. the sup says it for training purposes and so i can get my certification. we'll see, time will tell.

i'm still very interested in being a personal trainer. we met with some friends the other nite that i used to work with at another company and i brought up that this field wasn't my passion. we talked about what i think i'd like to do and one of them sent me links on getting certified as a personal trainer. i've looked it up before so i kinda knew what i need to do, but it was very sweet
of her. maybe it's time to really consider moving on, i'm just waiting for wifey to finish nursing school and start working before i make that kinda financial commitment. but like i said, we'll see.

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do."

"So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members." - Romans 7:21-23

i'm a Christian who struggles with sin. i personally don't hear too many Christians come right out and say that. i don't see it on too many blogs, not that i've read tons of them, but haven't seen it too much. are there Christians who struggle with sin and know it? who can admit it outloud? i can. i have days that go well and i'm walking with the Lord and trying to live like He wants and want nothing more. then i'll have those days where the inner man wants to do his own thing, and i play "dictator" insteading of playin "host". that is very frustrating. and the thing is, temptation is always right there whispering in my ear. the days of playing "dictator" are less and less, but it's still frustrating. i don't feel as guilt ridden as i used to cuz i know i'm forgiven and i dunno if thats always good. well, i think in my case it probably is, cuz alot of times the guilt is what would help keep me from coming forward and admitting i've sinned. and before you know it, i'm living in sin instead of running from it. weird how guilt works that way. but God had an answer for that, 1 John1:9, and Romans 3:11 reminds me that there is no one perfect. Romans 3:21-25 help me to persevere because i do believe.

i will say this too, since i've been really making an earnest attempt to live a godly life, a spirit filled life, the things that do not fall in line with that have less of an appeal and don't seem to have the same grip as before. i'm starting to have a better understanding of freedom in Christ, but it is a daily struggle. and the main thing is making that true attempt to know God and earnestly seek Him. it sounds like a cookie cutter answer but i do believe that when one does really seek Him through His word, He changes you. His word speaks to your heart.

about noah and the butterflies

that cartoon was funny to me cuz i just finished reading about the flood. i got interested in it because of the title of an album i was looking up and its connection to the bible. but anyway, noah spent just about a year, from one birthday to another birthday on the ark. you could kinda see how someone coulda been a little loopy after spending that much time on an ark. i dunno...it just struck me as funny, i emailed the link to my wife and she laughed out loud too, (i knew she would)

LOL

this made me laugh at loud yesterday!!

feeling a little overwhelmed

i was feeling pretty overwhelmed this morning, and forgetting to bring july's train pass didn't help. thats not like me, but the conductor was nice enough to lend me $10 so i could make it to and from work. i was planning on getting off at the next stop and walking back home since i couldn't get a hold of the wifey. man, taking care of a baby is ALOT OF WORK. much props to all the single moms with children. one is hard enough!! i barely have the energy to get up for work in the morning, much less get things done around the apt. when people tell you that life will never be the same you don't really grasp it until you're there taking care of your child and don't get to do the things you used to and want to do. bad enough i started getting sympathy pains in the form of being very very tired. been tryin to recover ever since. and now that he's here, the mental and emotional drain is heavy. being a first time parent is rough!

i don't get to the gym nearly as much now and that's hard for me cuz once the summer rolls around i'm a beast about going to the gym. and the past two summers i was makin real progress. i don't mind too much, its just hard for me to see that hard work slippin away and i've been working out for years, it's important to me. but all in due time. that's the attitude i have to take and i still get to play basketball about twice a week. i'm grateful for that. for awhile i was only playing once a week and i was starting to put weight on. my appetite didn't chage but i wasn't burning the food off as easily.

anwyay, the other day while talkin to a friend on the train it brought the verse "The last will be first, and the first last" (Matthew 20:16) to mind. i think that what Jesus was saying that on all levels of our lives our attitude should be to put others first. to put our own desires in the background. He also said in verse 26 and 27 "whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave". that was radical to say in those days and i think it's even more radical today. we are all about ourselves. and it's evident in the simplest things like how we drive on the highways. some one driving 80 miles an hour with a car length between him and the car in front of him will more often than not get cut off by someone who just had to get in front of him. so i try to use that verse as a reminder that raising my son and spending quality time with him even in the early early years of his life is important. important to him and important to me, even if i think an hour or two spent at the gym can't do harm this early on in his life. there's a time for everything and i'll get the time to get back in on regular basis when it's time. in the mean time i can do the best i can to work out when the opportunity presents itself.

Music

this past weekend was my first Father's Day!!! to be honest i never thought it would happen, well not never, but i was pretty much beginning to think it was never gonna happen. after 12 yrs of marriage and no children one would start to wonder. but God blessed us with a boy this feburary and here we are. it was a good day. woke up to two nice cards from the wifey, one was from jr to daddy (aawww). got some new aftershave and sports body wash and a book called "God is in the Small Stuff and it all matters." Looks like a very good book and hopefully i'll have the energy to read some on the train on the way home tonight.

i've been listening to alot of music that for me is uplifting. just last year a friend of mine turned me on to The Cross Movement. basically since then i've been searching for more music like that. i didn't even know this genre existed. well i did but, what i heard back in the day was corny. corny beats and flows and the lyrics weren't all that great. now to be fair i only heard a few people and didn't give the genre much of a chance. but at any rate things have changed! i've found quite a few artists on sounclick.com and on the artists websites. i used to spend way too much time surfing the web looking at stuff that it wasn't worth spending all that time looking at. pretty much from then on i started surfing for new music, even if it was new to just me. i used to love hip hop/rap, then around the time public enemy came out, the game done changed. lots of swearing on the albums. and i'm not saying it was public enemy specifically that brought it about, its just thats when i remember noticing it. and i guess i could kinda deal with that, but you could see that rap was gonna be different from then on. as much as i love rap, i couldn't buy too many cd's cuz there was just too much cursing for me.

flash ahead to now and the message is the same in just about all the hotest artist cd's. money, sex, drugs, violence. i know it doesn't seem like it, but isn't there more to life than that? the message by grandmaster flash showed that. public enemy showed that, nwa showed that too. grant it there was alot of violence in their message but they were letting the world know what their world was like, what life was like on their side of the tracks. i loved rap from when it first hit the scene! i could listen to it on the radio but once the message changed, having that kinda music fill my home, nope couldn't do it.

whether or not people want to believe it, music does have a strong influence on the listener. no point in trying to argue that. if anyone doesn't believe that they're denying the truth. yes, its ultimately up to the listener, but some listeners are weak minded. and music videos don't help.
anyway, enuff on that. its hard to find good music and people who even know what good music is nowadays. not just in the rap genre. and speaking of genres, i was listening to music when it was just music, there were no labels on music.

so, being a bit of an old school hip hop head, in the sense of being someone who's listened to it from the days of grand master flash and the furious five, run dmc, ll cool j, krs-1 till today, it was good to find quality Christian rap/Gospel rap/Holy Hip Hop, whatever you wanna call it that in my opinion rivals and outshines the music that is out now. and sometimes i have a short attention span with music in the sense that once i've played the heck out of a cd or a song, i'm ready for the newest joint.

here are some of the artists i'm feelin, and actually the list is growing each day. there is definetly what you'd call a revolution going on, even if its more "underground" now, i don't think it can be ignored for long. and even if it doesn't reach the status of secular music, i believe it's true purpose will be served.

• The Cross Movement
  
• Da T.R.U.T.H.
  
• Flame
• Redeemed Thought
  
• Timothy Brindle and Shai Linne!!
  
• Sev Statik
  
• J-Silas you can preview the Sound Proof cd here sroll down till you see Sound Proof
  
• J'son
  
• This'l
  

there are more, maybe i'll list them later. but their music has touched me and encouraged me in my walk with God. if cats like them can do it...know what i'm sayin? and you can tell they don't spit just to spit, there is a message, a mission behind what they're doing. cuz they could easily get their foot in the secular door, but they choose not to. and i know there are people who wouldn't believe it, but what i've heard from them has helped with my hunger for knowing the Word.
enuff for now!! whew!!

A Relationship...

with God. that is what i'm trying to have. i've been a Christian for a long time and for most of that time i didn't live or behave like a Christian should. i didn't think like one should either. this past summer i had an issue at work that was very upsetting and it brought me back to church and i took it to the altar. a former co-worker brought to my attention that other cows (co-workers) were making racial jokes behind my back. now they weren't picking on me necessarily but it was inapropriate for work. they're equal opportunity haters and think they're pretty funny. it turned into a HR thing and was quickly resolved. but at any rate it got me back in church. sometimes i start to wonder why, but i know i was very upset and surprised by what i found out. i don't think they really meant any harm, but they just act like idiots and don't think. but i brought it to the Lord and at the same time, my heart was aching for a true relationship with Him. i was tired of feeding on "milk" and living and thinking like one who did. i believe i expressed that in my prayer and wouldn't you know...a friend of mine who had helped me thru some other difficulties in the past was at the altar praying with/for me. and we talked about my desire to have a true relationship with God. we talked about meeting on a regular basis and it actually happened. alot has happened since then and its hard to deny that God didn't have His hands in it. so that's where i am now. this blog is a place for me to kinda journal about seeking that relationship. at times i'm very frustated and feel like this. its a process and something i finished reading yesterday was encouraging. but i know there'll be times when i'll be frustrated and it will be more with myself than anything. this blog is a big step for me. putting these kinds of feelings out in a public forum. but i think i wanna "meet" others who share in the struggle.

"God, i say you're the greatest light of my life
the cross, the greatest sight of my life
when i believed, the greatest night of my life
since then, its the greatest fight of my life, to get at You" - the cross movement.

that's how it feels sometimes. but i do believe it's true that the more you earnestly seek Him out, you will find Him, and you do feel closer and more like you're doing what He wants. i could go on but i'll stop here. cuz i can be pretty long winded at times.

right now i'm very frustrated with the fact that it appears my host doesn't support php. and even with the html version of radioblog i still can't get it to work. hopefully i can work something out. i have a friend who may be willing to host this blog on his server, we'll see. but i'm gonna hunt for some free hosting in the meantime. arrrgghh.

Someone's at the door

i think this is a great cartoon and i'm gonna comment on it later. i'm still tweaking the page a little. this is a new template and i'm seeing what i want to change.

another injury...arrggghhh!!

so saturday i pulled a calf muscle playin bball. if you'd call it playing, i ran up the court once, trotted really and trotted back down the court and went to make a sharp move i guess and felt something pop. i dunno if it was as bad as a pop, but i knew something was wrong right away and i stopped. i'm still getting over the hamstring pull i got back in nov i believe. its better but i'm sure its not 100%. the hamstring i can understand. i over did it in the gym then pushed it by playing ball the next morning. the calf, i don't get it. didn't feel anything all week. the previous week i played and had no problems. stayed and shot around for about an hour or so after and felt a little something but was able to still shoot around. didn't feel any pain. this saturday i didn't feel anything when i stretched and when i shot the ball around. i wasn't even going anywhere near full speed. the injuries are getting to be depressing. i walked the treadmill for an hour the 2 days before and didn't feel any discomfort with my calf. i'm trying to shed some unwanted fat and bball and walking were gonna be the preferred method and now i'm injured again. the calf feels pretty good today. i iced it on saturday and took something to bring down any swelling that might be going on inside. its not sensitive to the touch and by today i'm walking without really noticing that i have the injury. so i'm hoping that from being in decent shape, this will heal quickly. i'm gonna give it 2 weeks before trying to run again. and i guess for now i'll just walk on the treadmill. with the injury and being so tired from the baby's hours, the motivation to get to the gym is low. but i can still work other body parts and in the meantime. hopefully we'll get back to some kind of a schedule soon. i'm beat by the end of the day, more than ever. its about time to pack up and catch my train. later.

things that make you go hmmmm...

i have tons on mind. tons!! alot of it has alot to do with some of the stress that is going on in my life right now. it doesn't feel like it at the moment, but even up to this morning i didn't know how much more i could deal with and was very frustrated with how things are going. but later for the details on those things.
something that made me go hmmm yesterday was...why do churches fill up on Easter? i can kinda understand Christmas, (well actually not really) but Easter?? Easter is the celebration of the resurrection of Jesus. its not about the Easter bunny or anything like that. and i guess the reason i ask is why wait till Easter to go to church if you're a believer. or if you're a non believer, why would Easter draw you into a church? or why would it take Easter to get you to go to church if you're a "practicing" Christian who doesn't go to church regularly? i dunno if i'm wording this right but i just find it odd that so many people go to church on Easter. i know its more than getting a nice new dress or suit. and unlike Christmas, the Easter bunny is not like Santa Claus. the Easter bunny is not enough to cloud what Easter is really about. so people know why they're going to church and what they're going for. there isn't all the holiday hype like Christmas. and i guess it makes me go hmmmm because of the world we live in today. from what i see, God is being pushed out of everything and just not being taken as seriously as in the past. so to see church parking lots filled on Easter sunday, and especially considering what Easter represents, and the state of the world today, it makes me go hmmmmm.

...been awhile...

haven't paid much attention to this blog. life has been real busy. we have a new addition and things have been hectic. i've tried making some changes since my last post and hopefully i'll feel open enough to write about them here. changes meaning changing how i handle life. but again, i'm gonna try and stick with this. i need to have some consistency in my life. maybe this will be a way of working toward that or just a way for me to vent frustrations and voice my thoughts.

focus

feeling a little out of it today. not feeling too motivated in terms of work. but i will be focused today and take care of the things i need to. gonna not try and not get involved with the other bs that goes on here. just gonna take care of buisness. brought in my new dwele cd to help the day go by. today its just me, "coach" and "vinny". i'll call him vinny that for now cuz he comes across like the muscle in some mobster movie. enuff for now, got some printers to migrate from one server to another.

clothes, and games, and electronics...oh my!!!

no work talk today. picked up dwele's new album. he's an artist i know not too many people have heard of. well, maybe more than i think but he's not getting alot of air play here. i like him, he may be a little to mellow for some people but i'm diggin him. its the kinda album you wanna listen to when you're chillin at home and just trying to cool out from a hectic day. i'm just glad to have some new music, also got usher's new one. i like that too, i really like that song "throwback", he's matured and you can hear it on this album.
also checked up some new gadgets i'm looking into getting. it was funny, i haven't shopped for ANYTHING in a long time (besides food shopping), and i was like a kid in a candy store. all the new sneakers out, clothes, new electronics, games, etc. anyway i looked at some palm pilots cuz i'm actually thinking about getting one. but i'd want to use the heck out of it if i'm gonna put money into it. looked at some cd burners too. those are pretty cheap, altho i'd rather get an external one and those are a little more pricey. especially for my wallet right now. and i saw a really nice bench and weights set a good price, but all in due time. and this place my not be where i'll be for much longer and we're fortunate to have such a large place. if we knew we were staying i'd get it.
anyway its a nice day out and i don't wanna stay in front of this 'puter, as easy as it would be to do. i think this blog is ready to become public. i'll put up the comments, make it public and see what happens. if not i could keep it private i guess and journal that way. we'll see. gonna clean up the apt, which needs to be done in a bad way and then go visit some fam.

feeling a little better

feeling a little less violent today. heh. i got pretty upset by the end of the day yesterday. i actually had a few beers with "coach" and the new tech lead at the bar across the street after work. "Coach", is the cow that was driving me nuts yesterday. me and another cow gave him that nickname to kinda ease the stress and frustration of him always trying to tell us how to handle issues. we actually get a good laugh outta that one. anyway we had a coupla drinks and he brought up something about work that set me off and by the time i was leaving for home (we were there less than an hour) i was dropping the F bomb and basically saying f**k everybody. i had to remind a driver of the pedistrian right of way rules, i.e., when we're in between the BIG YELLOW LINES, you're supposed to stop and let us cross. i said something to him w/o even realizing that i had said it to him and his response was "ahh whatever". and its a good thing i was talking to my sis on my cell at the time or it coulda got real ugly since i was already heated. we were in our site's parking lot, so he had no excuse, its not like we were out in the street. but anyway the nite kinda got worse, it was just a bad day overall.
i missed my commuter rail train cuz we waited a half hour for the subway train to get to us. we being me and coach. and i pretty much blasted off about our so-called "team lead" and his approach with us and just how things go here till we went our seperate ways. i didn't end up getting home till just about 9:30, TWO hours later than normal. M called me while i was stewing about missing my train and we made arrangements for her to pick me up at another station and to call her when i was halfway there. well my cellphone died before i could call her and i didn't have any money on me so i had to call my sis collect and she put us on 3 way calling and called M and let her know i was at the station. i had to wait another half hour for her to come and get me. by the time M picked me up i was numb with anger and frustration. we'd spoken earlier in the day and i was pretty upset when we spoke about how coach was driving me nuts. then missing my train just added to it. so it was just a bad day. by the time she got to me i barely even wanted to speak, and i definetly didn't want to talk about the events of the day any more.
but i have real life concerns outside of work and so the bullshit that goes on at work has to be put in its place, at least that's the attitude for today. i feel kinda bad for getting so heated yesterday but at the same time i had to let off some steam. as for the attitude today, its just let me do my job, don't harass me about anything. you do your thing and i'll do mine. you do and i'll do me. i'm gonna cya (cover my ass) with everything i do here so no one can point any fingers at me about anything. i'll over do it if necessary. so far the day is going much better and i'm trying to have a better attitude, which i usually have. they just drive you crazy here sometimes. later

listening to :soulstar
by musiqsoulchild

i wanna strangle him!

one of my co-workers is driving me crazy. and from now on i'll be referring to co-workers as cow's. learned that abbreviation from a friend in cali and i like it. i wanna smack this dude. he thinks he is in charge and he is micro-managing. and i'm real close to tellin him to back off. he's the technical lead here, but thats it. but he keeps asking if we've checked on "tickets". we use a call tracking system to handle any problems or issues that come in and we call them tickets. and everytime he leaves the office and comes back he's asking if we've checked the queue...actually he doesn't ask. he's telling us to, assuming we haven't or he's telling us to take tickets as they come in. and its buggin me to no end. i had to tell him about himself a few weeks back so he could come back to reality and he told me he appreciated me letting him know and he apologized and said he just gets caught up in getting the work done and doesn't want to hear it from management. he's abbrasive and tries to take this "i'm in charge" posture. management telling him that's he's the tech lead was the worse thing they coulda done with his ego. and they should have known better, they've had problems with him and this same attitude before. and he's a know it all on top of it and always wants to tell you what he would do in a situation. you don't have to ask him either, he'll just tell you. "what i'd do is...." sometimes i wanna say "i don't wann know what you would do and nobody asked you what you'd do". his heart is in the right place most of the time, but he's a big worry wart and worries about things before they happen. and its driving me and another cow nuts!!! and i've already told the other cow if he says one more thing to me about checking the queue for tickets i'm gonna tell him about it. eeesh!! and he'll be losing the position soon, cuz a guy that worked here before will be taking it and i can't wait. i'm tired of his mouth. that's enough of a rant for now, i'm gonna go out and enjoy the weather for a bit.